anne1704

It is surprising to me even still that when you tell people you live in Vegas. They automatically assume that you live on the strip in one of the casinos. I hate to break it to all of you but, there really is housing out here in Vegas. I do not and probably never will live in a casino. Those are way to expensive. I actually live just west (I believe) of the strip closer to the mountains. I must say though that the view is amazing. You will never get the scenery anywhere else that you see here. I absolutely love it. The weather has been fairly nice to. Not to cold. It does get down to the fourties but oh well that is winter for you :).

I guess that out here. I can start fresh. No one really knows the real me except Angie and Martin. But maybe I can start new with my life and not have to worry about people telling me who I am supposed to be. So far the people out here have been really cool. I work with some really cool people. Even though I may need to get a second job so I can pay the rent when it comes to that. I am just glad that somewhere between March and April we will be out of this house. I should probably get going on my homework so I don't have to do it later.

It is the first day of my summer quarter for me and I am really not looking forward to it. Especially since I made my final decision of moving to Las Vegas and not continuing in Fashion Design. I still don't know if I am going to be a teacher or possibly a "water therapist" or a "horse therapist" I don't know. Well if you don't know what that means it is where you help kids with disabilities through therapy using water or horses. Either one would be a blast for me. I don't mind either. But boy let me tell you I am going to definately hate the next two quarters especially since I don't want to be here. I wish I could move right now but I have to finish the stupid lease off at my apartment. Oh well in only about five months I will be done with this school and I won't have to deal with it anymore. I am so happy about that. Well soon I will be in Las Vegas with all the people I really care about. Well almost as soon as Katie moves out there then I know it will be all the people I care about. I am just now need to figure out what I want to do when I get out there. I know this for sure. I am not going to go back to college till next fall at UNLV, hopefully. So I am just going to work and figure out what I want to do. But I don't care as long as I am out there. I will need to get my own cell phone and everything but that will hopefully not be a problem. Gosh I am so excited now. My confusion has slightened somewhat now. Yeah Baby.

It has been a long time since I last wrote in this journal. But what can I say I have been so stinkin busy that I haven't even been able to get a computer or anything. Well I better start writing cuz I have a lot to say this time.

Well Last night I didn't sleep at all. My mom thinks that it is because of the problem I am completely confused about. I am so confused on if I really want to be a Fashion Designer. I am just not having fun anymore and I don't think I want to do this for the rest of my life. A lot of things have been making me think about this. The main one is my job at Build-a-Bear. I have so much fun being around the kids and everybody. I even got a really great compliment from a customer. She basically said that they are planning their next vacation out to Las Vegas to go to that Build-a-Bear just to see me. I just happened to mention that I will be moving out there. The fact that I made that big of an influence on a child make me wonder 'Is this really what I want to do?' I have been thinking of all the possibilities that I could do to stay a fashion designer, but I don't know if it is worth it anymore. I could be strictly a children's clothing designer with an emphasis on special needed children but I don't want to be in the background watching everything. I want to be a role model for the children I meet. I was thinking of being an art teacher or a special education teacher, but then my mom said what about a physical therapist for special needed children. No matter what I decide it will definately include more years in college. But if I like it then it might be well worth it. I think I will definately try my hardest at following my Mom's advice at just praying about it and asking God which path would be the best one or the right one for me. I don't deny that I have learned quite a lot in the fashion courses at IADT but I am thinking my talents could be used and expressed somewhere else.

Well on the bright side let me tell you that I am so excited about moving to Vegas and I will be moving in only about five months. I am totally looking forward to it. I will also be seeing all of my friends in about three weeks when I go home for the weekend for coast guard festival. Well I don't know what else to write except if anyone can help me in my mass confusion please let me know. I really need it.

So a couple days ago I went ice skating at Millenium Park which is always nice at night. But okay now the funny part. My ankle was hurting like all day so I put an ace bandage on it, well let me just say that it made my ankle hurt even more so i decided to take it off. I get off the ice, sit down and pull off my skates and ace bandage. While I am putting my skates back on some little black kid, from like high school comes and sits next to me. His friends are screaming "Get her number". I was ready to just punch them all, but i decided to just ignore them. So as soon as I get my skates tied tight I jump up and charge onto the ice and do a couple of laps as fast as I can go. The second time around I hear them say "Damn she can skate" In my head I was thinking "No shit assholes what did you expect." Well then I get back off the ice cuz my other skate was loose, so I start tying it up and this old mexican dude sits next to me and asks me where he can by some of his own skates. So I tell him a couple places and everything. Then he starts flirting with me. I am totally grossed out at this point so I tell him that I need to get back out there. All of a sudden he is just watching me and he pretty much started following me around the ice I was so grossed out. I guess I have a stalker but you know that is Chicago living for ya.
Yeah I am so sick of Chicago, to put it lightly. All of my close friends are leaving the school here and going somewhere else. The school just sucks and I just can't afford Chicago anymore. So I have been talking to my parents trying to get them to let me transfer to the IADT in orlando, FL that way I can be closer to some family. My aunt lives just outside of Orlando, my older brother lives about an hour away in Tampa, and my grandpa lives in Sarasota. I mean I would actually be able to take half a day to see them instead of a whole weekend to see my family. I am just sick of being stuck in Chicago I want to be able to drive somewhere instead of depending on the public transportation or having to walk. Whatever though I still have to wait till next January anyways I have a year lease at my apartment and it ends in December. Well i gotta go I have class in a couple minutes. Peace Out

Okay so Tuesday night was the greatest night of my life in Chi-town so far. It completely made my day. First I went to my friend Sarah's apartment to finish getting ready for the "Pedro the Lion" concert. We left there about quarter to six to get there on time and these two black guys, I think were drunk, started yelling in the EL about how our butts were the biggest asses they have ever seen on a white girl and they were yelling so loud that everybody in the car were looking at us. So we rush off the train at Addison and walk casually to the Metro, where not surprisingly we see a ton of hot guys. So the concert was a blast and it is really cheap as well. But afterwards got even more interesting. We were fine until we got back to the stop to get back to Sarah's house. First when we get off the EL some guy yells "Oh, Pedro the Lion," and people start staring. So then this one guy turns and he looks at my shirt. Then he hops on the escalator and he stares at my chest the whole way up. And stupid me I don't say anything and I just turn to Sarah and say "So, I am really....tired." God I should have said something to him. He was farely cute. But then me and Sarah are walking down State to get to her apartment and some old guy goes to Sarah "A pretty girl like you shouldn't be out in the cold without a jacket." and he start unzipping his so me and Sarah literally start running down the street. And another guy in a wheelchair goes to Sarah and says "Beautiful." So we charge it back to her apartment and we started cracking up. This stuff has only happened to me in Chicago. Maybe I will have a chance to find a guy worthy to be my boyfriend out here. Maybe something will happen with the gorgeous guy I met and yes Ashley I met a fricken hott guy on my own. I am excited I move into my new apartment December 1. The only bad thing is it is really small but oh well I only have to live there for a year and then i can find a new one. I will not be able to live there for more than a year. But if anyone wants to come to Chi-town. Just give me a call and we can work things out.

Yeah I am back in Spring Lake for only like two days. I take the train back home friday morning but still it is good. I am so happy I am home. It is great seeing my family again i missed them all. I just wish i could see them at thanksgiving but the next time i will be able to see all of my friends is in january sometime when i come home for a week. But anywho, i decided not to tell a ton of people that i was home because i didn't want to have to see all of my friends and not see my family at all so sorry everybody that i didn't tell and didn't see but i hope you understand. I am so happy right now too. I have a 4.0 GPA at my college after the finals and that just makes me happy. Now everything will be better at the beginning of this coming quarter. I really need to meet some new people. I totally need to meet some guys too. I need a boyfriend i am so sick of being single. Just my luck i move out to chicago and i don't have any time to meet anyone. It just bums me out. But who cares I am going to force myself to get out more so i can meet new people. hopefully soon. well i think i am going to go now so i can finish my letter to my dearest angela and hopefully find out some info.